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The Man Who Waved Away My Loneliness

I thought I was alone with my thoughts in the early morning North Dakota fog. 

I’d left my brother’s farmhouse early in the morning
to make it to Montana before sunset. 

The 40 mile stretch south of my parents’  home is dotted with white crosses,
symbols of lives lost on the treacherous stretch of highway. 
I didn’t want to be driving that road too late in the evening.
I was eager to be on my way, but dreading the journey of the day.

My nine year old daughter dozed in the back seat,
quickly recovering from waking too early, as children do.

I was sorry to leave my birth state, but not sorry enough to move back. 
My husband and I had been Pacific Coast residents for eight years and
had adjusted to the big city life. But not enough to stay there forever.

We feel caught between the two worlds.

The loneliness of driving down that highway
in the middle of a prairie
in the middle of a lonely county road
in the early morning hours
was no different
than the loneliness of living
in the middle of a busy city
in the middle of busy roads
with people who never sleep.

I was painfully alone with thoughts of past, present and future.

Heart achingly alone in infinite emptiness.

 

The open prairie was my loneliness, my loneliness was the open prairie.

In a second, I spotted a figure in the fog.

The Road Walker

Because I drive my camera on my lap, I  captured this moment.

Confidant I caught the perfect shot,
I put down my camera and  missed the real photo op
.

 
But, the scene is imprinted on my heart and soul.

Like any good North Dakotan who passes someone on the road,
he lifted his right arm
and waved
without turning his head.

He never saw me 
or  the tears on my cheeks.

He didn’t see the fresh resolve 
from  the simple revelation.

It only took
one person
in one second
with one action
to remind me ~

the cure for  loneliness
in the middle of a prairie
in the middle of a lonely county road
in the early morning hours 
is  no different
than the cure for loneliness
in the middle of a busy city
in the middle of busy roads
with people who never sleep.